Cakes and Pies continues today with a characteristically "Tim" scene. A mess. Be sure to check out my brilliant observation that I do indeed have a face, whereas Twinkies do not.
I don't have my own quote journal, but I take my inspiration from those who do, and lay the blame squarely at their feet. I took the last week to read back through Thomas Merton's The Seven Storey Mountain and found a quote that sums up my feelings on beginning to discover for myself the Liturgy of the Hours.
Yes, and from the secret places of His essence, God began to fill my soul with grace in those days, grace that sprung from deep within me, I could not know how or where.But yet I would be able, after not so many months, to realize what was there, in the peace and the strength that were growing in me through my constant immersion in this tremendous, unending cycle of prayer, ever renewing it's vitality, it's inexhaustible sweet energies, from hour to hour, season to season in its returning round.
I'm at a cross roads with myself at the moment. I've been talking with a former employer lately who is in a bit of a crunch, one that I can help him out of. In the past, I left embittered and insulted by dealing with this person, and had been holding onto a resentment that I've struggled to let go of. The advice I was given in dealing with the resentment was to pray for this person in the same way that I would pray for myself. Give them the benefit of the doubt and pray for their success, and not curse them to their ruin.
I've taken that advice, and it has worked for a great deal of the resentment that I need to let go of. Now I'm faced with doing them a favor. I'm tempted to turn them down flat. It's an ego thing. I don't like being screwed over, but I would do this for a stranger if asked. How can I pray for someone's success and happiness and then contribute against it, even if by omission.
The answer that I am considering is to do the favor, through which we both benefit, and call the account settled. The relationship can be considered amended from it's former broken state, and I'll have had a chance to put my ego aside for a moment and actually put my "high ideals" to practice despite a still lingering desire to flatten this guy's tires.
I'm going to need some help on this one. I really need to start praying more.