I was out the door a bit early this morning and caught this sermon (remember my curious radio preacher addiction?) by Andy Stanley. Unfortunately I only had about 12 minutes of listening time before I was out of the broadcast area of the station (maybe I drive too fast) but caught one big pearl that I've been chewing on for the last two hours. The problem isn't that we need better schedules. The problem isn't that we need better discipline (though it couldn't hurt). The problem is that we need more time in the day. We need to do less and do it better. Something is going to have to be left undone. Someone is going to have to be cheated.
I know that I have this problem. In fact, I've always had this problem. I used to cheat everything else in my life for work. Now I'm better at dividing up the cheating. I work less and give more at home, but I also cheat my wife to focus on my son, cheat my son to fucus on my wife, cheat them both to fool around on the internet. Chores get done occasionally and get done well less often. But someone and usually everyone is going to get cheated because I do too much. I can't add hours into the day so attacking the problem from that angle is not my solution. My solution has to be priorities. When work is calling, the baby is crying and it's my turn to cook dinner, what do I choose?
Of course priorities is never one thing to the exclusion of the other, but things do take precidence. And things interact. I have to bring home a pay check. If I don't, it will rock my world and my wife's for many reasons. I can't let the baby cry even though Jenn and I are trying to have some quiet time. Unfortunately, Jenn seems to be the one that will get cheated more often than not. What makes this worse than the initial gut punch of realizing that I am cheating my wife for so many lesser reasons is the fact that she is the person that I am tied to with a sacramental bond. Closer than blood, it's a bond that is tied up in both of our redemptions. And I cheat that bond for a paycheck. Damn.
But is there an answer?
I don't think that there is a perfect answer. I can make progress, but all along the way we are going to need to forgive eachother for alot of cheating. Not infidelity of intimacy, but of attention. I need to learn to cheat everything else more than her.
Edit: I just found out there is a book. Apparently 'He who listens to the whole pod-cast gains enlightenment'.
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